Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam

Essential thinking for reading Catholics.

Monday, April 17, 2006

What to jettison. What to offer up.

You know the feeling.

You're running through the blogs you like reading and then you bump into something which angers/bothers/vexes/tribulates you, written by someone from whom you wouldn't expect it.

If you're anything like me--and, for your sake, I hope you aren't--your first impulse would be to launch into a philippic rant/vent. You stare at your keyboard, breathing a quiet blue flame from your nostrils, hardly knowing where to start...so greatly you are exercised.

C'mon, sing along! You know the words!

But.

BUT.

You let it go. Not entirely, no. You mention to your friend* in a quiet, gentle, one-hopes-cheerful way that you have a divergent** viewpoint. And you leave it at that.

That's when the Devil You shows up on your left shoulder, and tells you how unsatisfying it is to not get everything off your chest, not give that person "what for." You listen for a second and then, instead, with an initial wrench but with dawning comprehension...you follow the "better angels of your nature." Perhaps you choose to consider the other person was acting out of frustration, or misunderstanding. Maybe it was/is honest disagreement. Either way, knowing what you know...you let it go.

And it feels good.

It feels good because you have caught a potential spiritual cancer when its but a mere cell, and cast it out. You have (maybe not in so many words) looked Satan in the eye and said "HA! You are SO busted!" You can pause and reflect and thank God for being given the grace to spot this flaw in yourself.

And whenever you thank God for something you have managed, with His help, to accomplish you inevitably feel the soothing warmth of humility commingled with serenity, borne of His everpresent love for all of us. As your imperfect thank you, you lay that moment of indignation at the foot of His cross, that your moment of discomfort in some small, barely noticeable way, may be united to His suffering.

It may be Easter, and we may be rejoicing Our Saviour has risen, but in order to rejoice fully, we must remember the suffering at Calvary, and our contributions thereto.

Thank you Lord, for dealing with me from Your love, and not as a result of my actions.

AMDG,

-J.

* These things are always worse when they happen to come from someone you respect.
** This refers to circumstances that DO NOT fall under the requirement we "admonish the sinner," of course.

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